Tobias Wolff wrote this story called
“Say Yes,” and that kind of meaningful slick
one by one, to accumulate companion animals;
to colonize, interpolated with the spaces in the
landscape; Barthelme’s “Margins” :
bowl held a mixture of harmonious beans (You are
ultra-organized, artful; suffer egoism) . . . Hence the
handwriting all over the majority face; Carl leaning against
building. One of the larger cats growled. She smelled good.
I didn’t bother anyone. The brown shadow, the white sun
so delicate on the emerging human feelings. It was like
patches of dampening hair. The hurricane remained outside
the city. Well you just poke at the inner mechanisms, Carl didn’t
say, though I thought it. Then I folded the letter. The sidewalks
the envelope. I held the stifled conversation in my pocket,
walked a block through snow, past Family Dollar, a boarded up church,
The Men’s Warehouse. I walked quickly, the story in my hand.
“The Soul as a Skiff”(Michel Foucault)
Can I talk now? Step away from the gate—
animals, some striped, stream across old
warehouse windows. I am approaching, with a bent key,
a steel door in East Williamsburg. No, my
hair is not hot. It smells of psychotropics. I see
a small cottage, maybe there’s a tricycle
with red handlebars in front of it, boys and brown creepers
striding, laughing beyond the backlit mulberry groves,
wandering unborn in a goldenrod field. We’ll never wake
up alone. Hands cuffed behind one’s back. Edvard Munch’s
face melts against the blood-black sky,
or he’s shaking his head underwater while
the bathtub shares light; it burns her bones to blazing crystal.
I see a tiny white house—it’s not the castle I live in,
nobody’s shackled to the prow. It begins
raining in Wellesley. That was where I learned
my guardian angel is a liar. She called me Little Saint. She struck me
in the head with a wand made out of shallow ponds: first
I saw her feet naked, her legs, her wings folded. She said, My
breasts are not two fountains. Today my door facing the lake blows wide
open. A cardinal standing on my lawn is swallowing
an emotional rabbit. It is not upsetting. The sun is shining on Baugo Bay.
Sad Flowers(after the Howard Hodgkin painting of the same name)
They’re back-shot, black blood; we get the noon re-
port. It’s divided into pieces—they aren’t out there. They
the wires. Hello, death in Africa, to me in my underwear.
Here’s a blueprint of my pocket. When my face was wrapped
in muslin I could feel the dying animals, the places where they
in my brain. Child, camel, things burned: what memories of
these will I bring with me out of the grave. Everyone has to
deal with lint. I pick the stuff off my aloe plant, it flows up
the baby’s mouth and she’s laughing like a dead Jazz Singer.
Day back once again,
Reminds me of the
You know the hotel rooms—
You sit on your bed with a smile strapped to your face
A farm pig . . .
Perhaps wondering about sex
But let’s get ourselves far far away from all that
What’s the secret to sitting down?
(owning a stopwatch)
I still possess the ability to recognize the original fetal face in an adult human being . . .
What’s it mean to be wise, or right?